Gargi's Soulful Musings

Imagine yourself engaging in a new passionate activity, to raise above your challenges. You gain momentum. Your soul feels energised.  Your life gets more meaningful with each step into your passion. Unexpected applauses pour in.  All of a sudden, your deep fear comes alive through a personally hurtful criticism in public. What do you do?  That’s exactly what happened to my blog writing passion.  My subconscious fear, that held me back for many years, to be active in public forums, turned true with my previous blog post. Fear of facing hurtful, judgemental and hostile perspective/comments over  me  and  my   thoughts .  I believed I had overcome that fear, until it resurfaced out of the blue. An “anonymous” reader *ranked* me as “ zero ” in writing. I was accused of making a “mistake” in creating the blogspot. Above all, my writing was  brutally  compared with my Appa’s writings and labelled as “nothing” in front of his works. ...

During one of the travels, I bumped into a minor yet compelling episode.  The room I was allotted with, could not be opened, how much ever effort I put in. The neighbours tried but in vain and as it happens most of the time, none of the receptionists were reachable as well. I was super tired and exhausted, It was already late in the night.  To add onto the thrill, I was informed that another guest as well faced a similar difficulty the other day and ended up staying in another room.  Now the little hope that I had besides drifted away.  “What do I do, what do I do?” “Whom else do I call for help? “ “Where else do I go in that dark night?”  “What if I am left stranded in the middle of the night?” “Should I ask the neighbors for a small 6 feet place for sleeping? “ There began my eagerly awaiting mind’s endless chattering. Though I knew these panicking thoughts are of no use. So, I took the weapon again - that troublesome (or so I thought) key.  Rather than h...